Hope...

Well now here's an unsuspected turn of events,i found her.I found the girl i live unconditionally and guess what?I'm never getting together with her but,im ok with that.i gave me hope.I am (or was or still am) in love with nabila.On the first day, we found out that she's the direct descendant of nabi Muhammad S.A.W. that gives her a free pass 2 heaven so jokingly i asked her 2 marry me.Day 2 we we're double matched in my yearbook which is exceedingly rare.on day 3 we we're taking care of Ewie while my mums sending them back.she had her period pain so we comforted her inside the car.as we're doing this marry you by Bruno Mars started playing...I Love her yes,do i want to take it to the next level? probably not now and it probably wont ever happen..do i actually want it to happen? most likely not. Point is i have no idea what i want in life except Death.Im not exactly obsessed with her so i guess that affirms the fact that i love her?Well i love all my great friends so it doesn't make a difference

random writing of my emotions...

today was an ok day i guess....idk. The sky was a very lovely cobalt blue,i mean seriously it was the most beautiful and rare sight ive ever seen..its better than the sun rise and sun set...the sky got whiter and whiter as you looked to the Horizon.I swear NOBODY takes time to just look up these days.and even if a few do.....they glance not actually look,

Was it all worth it in the end?

I had a feeling just now.it felt like everything was gonna be alright.and in the next 3 days i'll find a girl i like.idk why but that feeling was just there idk whether 2 believe it or 2 dismiss it....i highly doubt it but of course im human and i HOPE. i hope i wish the feeling is correct and i will find a girl whom i will chase until i get her...sadly logically speaking i only feel like that because exams will be over in the next few days..but like i said HOPE has a way of sneaking up on you

Friends?

ITS BEEN AGES!!!! lol well im over her (fingers crossed) and like the only other drama i hv is the fact that i now know who my true friends are and wtv man they think they so fly just wait until they reach college i could just get somebody 2 forever ruin their social life but meh not worth the time IM TALKING BOUT YOU BACK STABBING BITCHES!!! Tasha i motherfucking helped you in yo time of need you heartbreaking motherfucking whore of a slut aww yeah i went there. and awin you attention seeking whore of a slut. you think you so fine you wear things that dont go cause you motherfucking fat look at yo thighs slut they bigger than mine!!o and HELmi you the bigest most 2 faced snake arnt ya playing nice with me then bitching about me behind my back well...FUCK YOU!!! look. i really cant care less you people think you so fly.i dont give a dam if you thinkl your covonent is da bomb cause i know....when you reach college.well....thats my fucking turf