twisted

twisted twisted feelings god!!!!whats wrong with me i feel so much hate especially towards her that stupid witch must have enchanted me or something i might have demons in me but im still somewhat human maybe she cast a spell so that guys will fall for her stupid idiotic me for falling under her spell stupid stupid stupid stupid curse ARGHHH!!!!!! why does that bitch curse me even till now i got over her and still the curse grips me and drags me down to the icy depths that suffocates you and squeeze every las breath and tear off you...a curse that revolves around sorrow and yet one that tricks you into thinking its a gift a devastating curse called love....let me tell you something love is not the same if you take away the pain,the sorrow,the hope of death yet pathetic humans still yearns for it stupid cattle whom are nothing but bags of meat with a brain that never gets used insignificant beings of stupidity and damnation they who cling to suffering called life and sorrow called love.....i love her....maybe because of a spell.....maybe because its meant to be...i dont care i just dont.....my body is falling and is going to hit the ground and its gonna hurt why'd you think its called falling....i dont want to love.....i dont want to love......i dont want to love........i dont want to love.......why......

they lied

they say bordem kills....they lied....if not i would happily be dead in the ground instead im here doing this blog bored insted it tortures you making you beg for mercy and trying to figure out what to do while slowly killing time then when all fails you do something stupid and im bored....help

last day on earth

what will you do if its your last day on earth? that question came to david when him as he was sitting down infront of his tv.he wasnt the most interesting guy but he thought about it what does he want t do he thought about i for a long time thinking many people would kill or donate o pray and all cling to little hope of life before death but he wasnt like everyone else he was different yet same he continue thinking and went through subjects...would he try find love? no why would he curse himself would he find solace in the arms of women?what good would that do as he continue his lifes hour glass is starting to run out.......damn she thought as she tripped down the steps after a moment of crashing she fell on he she then stood up and apologized he didnt have time for this and left.she got angry and stormed after him and slaped him. he was shocked and recoiled but didnt stop he has no time for this.shocked of what she did she went back into the apartment block she saw her destroyed cake. the next day she went to his house and started to knock on the door when he came to answer the door shes stunned cause theres a mark where she slaped him yesterday she began to say sorry when he put a finger infront of her mouth he began to say he's sorry for yesterday and all when he noticed she looked flushed and was staring at him he asked her and she just shook her head and left he thought her as a weird character....back at her room she slammed the door behind her and sat at the floor and began thinking...she remembered how much she loved him and then began hating him for causing her pain and she hated how he never said sorry no matter what he did she convinced herself that he was a useless asshole and never looked back but something about that encounter...he found the money he was looking for and sat at a corner thinking what is he going to do with it..he hated it when he forgets but the question kept repeating in his head what would he do on the last day......the next day she went to the group meeting for those who want to know themselves better and this session was different it was self reflection of poeple they have hurt and people who hurt them they all started crying but she has no regrets but it was an emotional moment so she let herself drift her mind open to everything no mask no nothing and it went to him at first she was shocked with the warm tears running down her checks then it got worse what started as silent weeping turned to uncontrollable crying and many questions swarm her head they were instructed to write down their prejudice and so on in a piece of paper but she wrote down questions of why him why love why why why....they were then to rip the paper up but she was still crying......the next day is the last she will ever see him as she carried down the cake he ordered she gave it to him and he invited her in when she stepped in she saw the wall are filled with beautifully drawn butterflies...she asked and he told her he has a thing about drawing butterflies then she left....that night she was carrying vases down while he was going up he knocked into her causeing her to fall but at the last moment hepushed her up the steps but in doing so falling down himself and time froze slowly as she saw him fall and the shattered clear vase showered him in shards of razor sharp glass and his blood crimson red now coming out of his body she went to him and wanted to say something when he put his finger on her lips and wispered "shhhh dont worry i had a question in my head asking what would i do if i had one last day on earth and i answered id like to live it as any other day and i got my wish" and she started crying as death appered before him "you are a strange man you are i gave you unlimited choises but you choose just another day" said death in an inhumane voice "yes death but i regret it not"with that death took him away she is still standing over his body now lifeless when the paramedics arrived she loved him yet she could not be with him she cryed and cryed and cryed..... parts of this story were inspired by real life events